Who Loves You
One of the benefits of getting older is the realization that the people you think are thinking about you or judging you or disapproving of you are not doing those things.
As children, we imagine that everyone has opinions on us. Sadly, some people never outgrow those feelings.
The reality is that most of those children you grew up thinking were talking about you imagined you were doing the same thing.
Even worse, in our time, people will spend huge amounts of time and mental energy seeking approval from others (often, people they've "met" online) who will never think about us. Much less love us, help us, or care about us in any way.
You have a circle of people who genuinely care about you. It probably includes family members, some friends of long standing, and a few others. I am always open to meeting people and making new friends. I hope you are, too. But the circle of those who genuinely love you, care about you, and are interested in you is breathtakingly small.
And that's how it should be. It's largely a function of the internet that we imagine that the group is larger. It's not.
Concentrate on that group. Keep in touch with them, see them whenever you can, spend time with them, and let them be the focus of your emotional energy.
Life in this sphere really is short. Don't waste it.